Ghost

The special broken pieces

Every star has my wish…a wish for myself and a wish for you…that I may keep being strong and that may you find the peace and happiness you deserve…#mischiefmanaged #wishes #stars

Every star has my wish…a wish for myself and a wish for you…that I may keep being strong and that may you find the peace and happiness you deserve…#mischiefmanaged #wishes #stars

Happy friday! ^^ #mischiefmanaged

Happy friday! ^^ #mischiefmanaged

Thanks for making a difference in mine…no matter what happens…wherever we end up in…whoever we meet…i’ll always be thankful for you… #friends #andyou #yesyou #thankful #blessed #grateful #dunnoifyoullseethisthough

Thanks for making a difference in mine…no matter what happens…wherever we end up in…whoever we meet…i’ll always be thankful for you… #friends #andyou #yesyou #thankful #blessed #grateful #dunnoifyoullseethisthough

Manage the pain…don’t rush things…life is difficult…learn how to manage… #mischiefmanaged #gettingbetter #stepbystep

Manage the pain…don’t rush things…life is difficult…learn how to manage… #mischiefmanaged #gettingbetter #stepbystep

It’s been weeks after my bday and I’m still getting presents…kkk…babe, I’m so grateful that you remember me in your travels…thank you for these! And thanks for cooking dinner kagabi! Next time yung promise mong lasagna naman ah! hahaha! Halabshoo, alam mo yan!  ^^ #friendship #deeproots #blessed #loved #gifts #presents #keychains #mycollection #simplejoys #always #be #my #babe

It’s been weeks after my bday and I’m still getting presents…kkk…babe, I’m so grateful that you remember me in your travels…thank you for these! And thanks for cooking dinner kagabi! Next time yung promise mong lasagna naman ah! hahaha! Halabshoo, alam mo yan! ^^ #friendship #deeproots #blessed #loved #gifts #presents #keychains #mycollection #simplejoys #always #be #my #babe

In a month and two days it’s his bday…I used to be busy this time of the year thinking of what I can give or do for him…I have to forget about that now…I have to manage everything and transcend the pain…#movingforward #viciouscycle #mischiefmanaged

In a month and two days it’s his bday…I used to be busy this time of the year thinking of what I can give or do for him…I have to forget about that now…I have to manage everything and transcend the pain…#movingforward #viciouscycle #mischiefmanaged

d0cpr0fess0r:

andyts:

Goddamnit pandas.

“Okay your job is to keep the pandas in their pen.”

“And I get paid to do this.”

“Yes.”

Splendid.”

(Source: diablodancer)

Mischief Managed

Regardless of what people tell me, that “It will get better.”, or “It’ll pass.”, fact is, I will never be okay…atleast not in the near future as I hoped it would be…

sure the pain might pass, the tears will dry up, the anger will fade but the fact still remains that I am now broken and I’ll never be a hundred percent okay…alcohol, food, friends and laughter, and all those other things drowns or covers the pain for a while but then I eventually realize that I was never okay to begin with and that everything was a lie…everything starts to crumble and then suddenly I’m sucked back into that dark vortex…it’s a vicious cycle and it’s tiring…but you know what? One day I saw my self and realized that I can’t sulk for the rest of my life…i can’t keep getting sucked into that black hole and then take days to get the hell out…I began to think, I got hurt, so what? why am I letting pain cripple me? I learned how to love. I experienced love, even if it was for a short time. I found something that people spend way too much time looking for…I didn’t get to keep it but maybe one day I will…but fact is, I. Was. Happy. I. Was. Loved. and I can still be those things if I stop shutting myself from the world and all the other people in my life…so why should I let pain rule me over? I shouldn’t waste my time and energy being eaten up by darkness and monsters everytime I’m alone…so at one point I decided that enough is enough…I learned how to tame the monsters and to stay still in the darkness… because life does not revolve around one insignificant person who never acknowledged my worth and significance in his life…

I’m not perfect though, there are days I falter and shrink back into a fetal position, kinda like today, but…oh BUT! it has become easier for me to jump back up and keep on moving forward…I was never okay and it’ll take time before I’ll be okay but as i would often say these days, #mischiefmanaged…because I realized that’s all I have to do…manage the pain, manage the sadness, manage the loneliness, manage the emptiness…because those things never go away…and if I ignore them they’ll just continue to claw the life out of me, leaving me an empty shell…and so far I’m managing it well the past two weeks…

I’m not okay. I was never be okay. But now, I’m okay with that because now I know I will be eventually…not as soon as I initially wanted…but eventually^^

therealraewest:

that moment when dean had a full on panic attack

(Source: spnfans)

shabbitable:

sorry for the new lyrics of fantastic baby, GD[x]

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